Heather Feather will be in my Heart Forever..

A few days from now, 8 days to be exact, Heather will go back to Utah and live her life just the way it was 2 months ago before she left and work temporarily here in the Philippines. I don't even want to think about her leaving. :( But days pass so fast, we hardly can tell and the only time we realize it's over is when it is -over.

Now I believe that friendship is really something that can change someone's heart. Before I met Heather, I always have this "weirdness" inside of me that I kept holding back because I know that no one will ever understand. In the meantime maybe, some may pretend that they do, but in the end of everything, they might always think that I am "not normal".

Not with Heather. We have the same wavelength. She taught me to care less of what others will think or say as long as I'm not doing anything wrong. I love my Filipino culture and I love my race. And I would love it even more if some of us will try to learn that there are things that we should stop giving attention to.. -like living a life from a set of standards created by people with a dogmatic rather than a conservative point of view.

I love her so much. It breaks my heart thinking I'll be coming to work but won't be seeing her pink mug elsewhere. I'll miss having lunch with her, as she would always ask "What's that?" or "What is this?", pertaining to the food usually served at the pantry. Oh how I'll miss her voice telling me how stupid I am not to take care of my escalations.. :) I will miss her to pieces. *sigh*

It's not right to have a heavy heart at this time. I have to make her last week of stay as happy as it could be. For I'll never know when will I get to see her again. How I wish to work my butt off like crazy so I'll be able to visit her someday there in her far away land and meet Dill and her grandma.

....let me end this one now before I even start crying.. :(

Taking a Deep Breath..

It's not "us" anymore. I admit, my heart is still aching thinking I have hurt him like I never imagined I could.

But everything will be better now. I know everything will be better.

Attitude Problem

Today, on a Sunday morning, I have an attitude problem. Well, I can't talk about what problem that is about my attitude for I am just too lazy to type and discuss how unpleasant I am to deal with today. Sometimes you really wake up at the wrong side of the bed and the next thing you'll know is that you piss off each and every person you are with. I don't know. I am not going to eat till I figure out and fix what's wrong with me.

Taylor Swift - Breathe ft. Colbie Caillat [Video]

I am loving this song right now... I don't know, I can't stop listening to this.. Everybody calls me the Dakilang Emo as of the moment but I simply don't care. This is such a very very beautiful song in my opinion.

Fashion21 Waterproof Liquid Eyeliner

Ever since I started to learn how to put on make-up, I knew early as I should that an eyeliner makes such a big difference in eye make-up. Especially for "chinitas" like me. :) and sometimes on lazy days that I find it so lethargic on putting an eyeshadow, an eyeliner is fairly enough to enhance my eyes.

I have tried some liquid eyeliners available but none ever compared to the satisfaction that Fashion21 gives me.. --well, given the fact that this only costs around 150PHP.

Two thumbs up for:

*** The Consistency. I don't know for others, but I want my liquid eyeliner to be of thin consistency.

*** The Staying Power. Goodness! This eyeliner lasts on your lids in as long as you'd want it to. It won't even come off with soap and water so I remove this using Human Heart Nature Sunflower Seed Oil.

*** It doesn't smudge or create a crease in the lids and it dries up fast upon application.

*** It comes in a glass tube and that's a good thing because It won't dry up inside unlike the ones that come in plastic tubes.

Overall, I can't find anything I don't like with this eyeliner. This is simply my eye's bestfriend. :)

A Metaphor: The Pencilcase

Yesterday, I was able to see the old pencilcase that I have loved when I was 10 years old. It never changed to my surprise, and I realized that I liked it more now than I ever did before. After long 15 years, I never imagined I'd be able to see it again and that I'll be able to hold it again. I am just so happy, very very happy.. :)

Between You and Me

This is for you. If there's a perfect time for you to prove something, then do it now. It has been long and I guess we're just looking for things we need to grow up. I don't want to give up, but please give me more reasons -to not give up. I love you, and I certainly know that you do love me too. If there's one thing I hate doing, that is to ever hurt your feelings. So I'm trying hard. You better start thinking now because time is running so fast. So fast that we barely could see if there's still something left for us.